pissed on my visions

i feel defiled at the moment, if you look at it in a cosmic ordering kind of way then it is my fault for feeling like this and that i must always be upbeat and bubbly! dont think so pal! its unreal and escapist and i believe if one is tosurvive and evolve with gaia and her plans then we must face and feel the shadows......not spend our wishes and thoughts on only getting rich or finding a parking place, come on cosmic ordering 'gurus', dont keep the students on a diet of candyfloss for flicks sake!anyway, i digress.............yeah, my old visions are tainted, they used to be so pure and beautiful, so utopic and nature filled, with a cosmic osmosis and a photosynthesis of energy, dancing, creating, thinking..........but i had to earth these things, so now i am in tjhe system more than i have been for years, i can feel the mechanisms of cyberia around me, see its empty dreams and hopes, feel its illusions, maybe this is so when i next disconnect, i can take a large chunk of it to the healing realms to be assimilated, understood amd altered by the higher vibes! Ha! bye for now!